Jessika Boston2 months agoI’ve been married for five years, and we’ve been together for 11. As I’m preparing for the arrival of our baby—I’m 9 months pregnant—I’ve been scrolling through old photos and videos to free up space. While doing this, I realized something heartbreaking: my husband doesn’t love me anymore. I’ve been convincing myself otherwise because I love him so much, but the signs are undeniable. Looking at old photos, I noticed how his smile has changed—it’s no longer the same warm, loving smile I used to see. In more recent photos, he looks distant. It hit me that it’s been a long time since he’s kissed me “just because.” Now, he only kisses me as part of a routine, like when he’s leaving the house. He doesn’t hug me the way he used to, seeking my touch. We’ve stopped making out altogether. He no longer takes photos of me or posts about me on his social media. I remember asking him once why he didn’t post about the surprise birthday getaway I planned for him. His response was that he didn’t want to make others jealous. During this pregnancy, not once has he told me I look pretty, even though he knows I’ve been struggling with my changing body. When I cry, he doesn’t comfort me anymore. His favorite songs right now seem to reflect longing and missing someone deeply, which only adds to my feelings of insecurity. For context, I caught him texting an ex-fling—someone I reluctantly agreed he could stay friends with after we moved to this new country. He said it was harmless, claiming he just enjoyed the attention. I felt deeply hurt because I’ve done everything I could to make him feel secure, confident, and loved. At this point, I’m too emotionally drained to care if he’s cheating again. I just needed to release these feelings. I want to tell him how I’m feeling—that I’m willing to let him go if he doesn’t love me anymore. But I know he won’t be honest with me. I feel stuck, especially with how close I am to giving birth. I know things will only get harder from here, and I don’t know what to do.141
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