Adam Darijaa month agoI (20M) find myself in a beautiful yet challenging relationship with my girlfriend (22F). We met online and quickly realized that we shared an incredible connection. It feels as though we are two bodies with one soul—our interests align perfectly, our family dynamics complement each other, and our visions for the future are intertwined. To describe my love for her, I would say it’s like a river flowing toward her, navigating any obstacles in its path, determined to be with her, no matter the distance or challenges. However, despite this deep love, I am struggling with my mental and emotional health. I feel myself becoming increasingly numb each day, grappling with various issues that I’ve shared with her. Despite my struggles, she remains steadfast, willing to be by my side even in the darkest moments. Her support means the world to me, but I can’t shake the feeling that I might be a burden to her. In a few days, I plan to visit my doctor for an MRI. I’ve been researching a condition called Multiple Sclerosis (MS), and many of its symptoms resonate with what I’ve been experiencing. While I am not particularly afraid of the diagnosis itself, I am deeply saddened by the thought of her having to deal with the challenges that come with my potential illness. Recently, during a heartfelt conversation, she expressed that if she were to pass away, she would want me to move on and find happiness with someone else. The thought of that is unbearable for me; if it’s not her, I can’t imagine being with anyone else. My heart is completely intertwined with hers. As I prepare for the possibility of a positive diagnosis, I am torn between wanting to protect her from the pain of my illness and recognizing the strength of our bond. I would appreciate any advice on how to navigate this situation if the MRI results confirm my fears. Additionally, I need help responding to her question: "Would you leave if something like this were to happen to me?" I love her deeply, and the last thing I want is for her to suffer because of my struggles. I’m at a crossroads, and I hope to find clarity on how to move forward together, no matter what the future holds.138
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