Humbert Astora month agoMy GF (22F) and I (24M) are both drug users/addicts, and I impulsively broke up with her today after a fight about her cocaine use. Is there any hope for us? I don’t know what to do. I started using hard drugs, including cocaine, when I was 22. It started out casually, using on weekends and at parties, but things got worse over time. By the end of 2023, I stopped doing cocaine but continued using other substances like benzos, ketamine, and opioids. In 2024, I met my girlfriend through mutual friends, and we connected over our shared drug use. We used ketamine and weed together in the beginning, but over time, I tried to stop using pills because I wanted a healthier relationship. She didn’t like it when I used Xanax or morphine, so we mostly smoked weed and drank wine together. A few months ago, a friend of ours, who had been clean from cocaine for two years, relapsed, and I ended up doing coke with him. My girlfriend, who had never used coke, eventually started doing it with us. I had some rough weeks using cocaine every day, and I feel guilty for enabling her. I’ve tried to get clean, but it’s been hard. My girlfriend, however, has become more interested in cocaine, and that’s all she wants to do when we’re together. I’ve tried to stay away, but when we meet up and there’s coke around, I struggle to resist. A few days ago, she went on a binge, using cocaine and benzos for five days straight. She was physically incapable of going home after being up for 48 hours straight, and despite being in a bad state, she just wanted more drugs. When I tried to get her to sleep and take care of her, she later dismissed my concerns and said I was being a buzzkill. She’s become really irritable and rude when she’s coming down from the drugs, and it’s been affecting our relationship. Last night, I tried to tell her to avoid cocaine for a day, but she screamed at me, and I lost my temper. I ended up impulsively breaking up with her, telling her she could keep doing coke without me as the "pain in the ass" trying to stop her. I deeply regret what I said because I love her, but it feels like she’s choosing the cocaine over me. She seems to prefer doing coke rather than spending time with me, and I don’t know how to handle this anymore. I want to support her, but she seems to push away help and doesn't seem ready to change. I’m considering whether we should take a break from the relationship to focus on ourselves and maybe stay friends. But I also love her and wonder if I should apologize and get back together, hoping she’ll make a change. What should I do? I feel completely lost.142
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